Why Am I So Scared?

Have you ever had a feeling that you can't explain? I'm not talking about attraction to a person or love or anything like that. There's always an explanation for that, even if you can't think of it.

Today, I feel paranoid. Somehow, I have this crazy feeling that something really, really bad is going to happen. Not like a natural disaster or a terrorist attack or a fire or anything, just something that will come as a really big emotional blow to me.

Here I am, minding my own business on the 4th floor of the KSU library. I put my book away having finished it during this 3 hour-long break (Perfect Chemistry by Simone Elkeles). I check my Facebook and answer some of the wall posts and messages. And I'm hit with the most mind-numbing feeling that something is going to go wrong. I've tried distracting myself with Tumblr and Twitter, but I just can't shake this feeling.

Am I being ridiculous? Probably. It's making me very anxious. I'll let you know if I was right the next time I blog. God knows when that's gunna happen...

College with Senioritis

The unfortunate thing about graduating high school is that senioritis doesn't go away. Here I am, in college for over 3 months now, and I still struggle daily with the plague that is known as senioritis.

That is my only excuse for not blogging. I'm just lazy. I haven't been busy, I don't "not have time" for it, I'm just downright, 100% lazy. I credit this to college not being challenging enough.

My high school prepared me very well for college. Unfortunately, they prepared me for a college that has more rigorous academics than Kent State. Now, when everyone asks me how college is, I unfortunately have to report that it's "too easy" and that I "have way to much free time on my hands."

Most people would jump for joy to have this sort of free time. For me, it's just a reminder of how anti-social I am. Have you noticed how often I'm on Tumblr nowadays? Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with my friends and meeting new people. It's just very difficult to make time to be with people when they live a good half hour away from you.

Normally, this is the part of the blog post where I give you unsolicited advice on how to deal with the issue that I have brought up. When I figure out how to deal with laziness myself, I'll let you know. Pinky promise.

Summer Sun, Something's Begun

Actually, nothing's begun. Sadly. But hey, once summer's over, I'll be headed to college where I can be anyone I want to be. It's a fresh start. And college guys are a lot more open-minded than high school guys, right? Right? RIGHT? Damn.

A girl can dream.

But you know what I like about college already? How connected everyone is. Probably the best thing I've done since I found out I was headed to Kent State in the fall was joining the Kent 2015 page on Facebook. I have been friended by many of my future classmates and have even gotten a few new followers on Twitter.

I know, I know. Chances are, we might never meet in real life. Kent's a big place. But that doesn't change the fact that we are connected. If not by our courses or our majors or our routes to classes on campus, we're at least connected through the university. We all bleed blue and gold.

I'm a Golden Flash. I may not have been too proud of it before, but I swear, I'm going to be fiercely loyal to this university. And we all know what happens when I'm fiercely loyal to something.


Look out Kent, here I come.